We were discussing the concept that as a leader you should do "what only you can do." This is hard for me. I fully admit my leadership weaknesses. The things I am gifted at don't really seem to have much to do with leadership.
One of the other area coordinators (someone I didn't know) said that he and his wife only pack two shoe boxes each year--one for a boy and one for a girl--because they are too busy leading their team to run around shopping for sale items to fill boxes.
Suddenly this wave of emotions kind of hit me and I felt like I spend my time doing all the wrong things. I started feeling so emotional that I ended up leaving and just going to my room to crawl under the covers and cry for awhile. Silly and selfish and kind of juvenile. But it passed and I returned to the discussion that had moved on to spiritual warfare--ahem.
At 6:00 am on Sunday morning (yeah--really 5:00 on the old time schedule) I hit the hotel treadmill. I am not a good treadmill runner. When I run outside I can vary my pace and don't feel the need to quit.
Running on the treadmill helped me see how slow I have gotten during my outdoor slogs through the snow. So when I set the pace for a SLOW 9:50 minute mile and still was struggling I wanted to quit.
But I made myself just slow down the pace for awhile until I could catch my breath and then inched it back up again. I had to do this two other times in order to finish my 30 minutes but I did finish.
I think maybe this applies to OCC leadership, too. Sometimes when all I can think about is quitting maybe I just need to slow down and take a little break.
Something to consider while I'm treading the mill.
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